The loneliness I can only fix by utilizing what I have where I am, so mum and I are going to watch something interesting on television and hopefully talk.
It's dark so all the dogs are curled up on the couch like little leeches, no longer annoying. That fixed itself.
Just woke from a blissful afternoon nap, 2 1/2 hours in length. I have no plans tonight of staying up late, instead I'll be in bed around 10pm to honor my word. About to fix the hunger once my dinner warms in the microwave. I've got to remember to eat slow #heartburn #GERD.
H- I haven't been eating right since Thanksgiving and I've skipped a lot of meals too.
A -I'm annoyed because mom's dogs will not stop barking & they're relentless
L- Can't really do nothing about this at the moment
T- Only slept 3 1/2 hours, been awake for almost 12 hours now
Mindsets that lead to recovery:
1) I can't control that
2) I can't change the past
3) What will be will be
4) I don't care what he/she thinks
5) I'll do my best and be okay with that
6) It's not a big deal
7) It's okay to feel bad
8) Thoughts don't make it real
I take care all of my mothers prescriptions & she asked me yesterday why she only had 6 pills left, she should have around 22. For the life of me I cannot find another bottle that they claim to have filled, on the bottle it said "owed you" in past tense but I can't find them!
This makes my job harder being a care provider for my mother, it's not easy as it is. It's aggravating! Tomorrow if they cannot shed light on why they keep having pill shortages I'm going to transfer my prescriptions to another one. Fuck this confusion.
Amanda. 34. Diagnosed with #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder ( #bpd #eupd), #ptsd, #depression, #anxiety. Invisible illness #chronicpain, #MultipleSclerosis. Looking for a support system from those who are living with the same. #Menopause, #AddictionRecovery #SoberPod advocate.